Are these feelings ok?

I think your feelings are completely normal. your pregnancy started off extremely stressful. that, mixed with the hormones can sometimes result in more negative feelings. for now, just try to enjoy your pregnancy. do exactly what you've been doing, paying attention to movement and really trying to embrace the pregnancy. I would ume your hormones will level out eventually. I personally didn't deal with these types of feelings, but i know many people who have. most of them had extremely stressful pregnancies. so your situations makes sense to me. don't be so hard on yourself. once that baby is born, you will look at it, and you WILL love it as much as your first child! good luck!